My friend, Randi, sent me a link to this devotion today and it spoke directly to an issue I have been pondering.
There are a handful of Moms of teenagers in my life. Over the last couple of weeks I have had multiple conversations with them about the process of letting go of their teenagers/college students--and the fear that accompanies it.
One of my friends, who took her son to college the week before I sent mine to Kindergarten, described the process akin to giving birth all over again...the pain, the struggle, the joy, the emotion. It must be done--the separation--but it can be a messy.
As our birdies leave the nest we pray we have done 'enough' and prepared them well. We second guess. We long to bubble wrap them and protect them. And yet, if we are honest, the most pivotal experiences in most of our lives are things a loving, well-intentioned parent would have chosen to protect us from. These are the moments that test us, stretch us, prove where we can go for our faith and strength.
And yet, like the author of the post, my prayers are often reduced to protection of my children rather than strength for the inevitable battle of life.
It is certainly not my intention to 'throw my children to the wolves,' but it is clearly not God's Will for me to live life 'protecting them' from Him.
Great food for thought here...
Forgive me, Lord, for forgetting how very big You are. How dare I think I know better than You! Make me like Hannah, committed to Your Will for these children. I give You my fear. I submit to Your Will. Give me strength and courage to trust You!