Friday, June 30, 2006

How Do I Not Forget?


I photograph my children daily. I blog about them. I videotape them doing silly everyday activities. Yet, in my heart I know that I will not remember most of the things that are such dear parts of our daily life.

Like how they say things like "Boobetties, Mem-mon-may, pucs & Hole juu" and I know instantly (most of the time, anyway) that they want blueberries, lemonade, cups or to be held.

Or how it feels to hold their little hands while walking together.

The sound of their giggles as they chase each other around the house.

Or how there is no peace like holding a sleepy child close & feeling their sweet breath against my neck.

I think that is what this blogging, obsessive photography thing is about for me--as a matter of fact, I KNOW it is. Time passes. Things change. Don't get me wrong, I know there will be many, many things about the ages to come that I will MUCH prefer to this age. Honestly, there are plenty of afternoons that I wish away.

But today there is a lump in my throat & a pain in my heart at the thought of these 3 growing up.

21 comments:

Sarah's In the Midst of It said...

precious, precious post--and the pictures of your children are SO beautiful! makes me want to go grab the camera and take a few of my own! *hugs* to you today!

Perri said...

beautiful.

Get a tape recorder. Record them when they have no idea you are. Put it in a fire proof box. I have wonderful tapes of all of my kids when they were babies. Sometimes it's better even than movies, because they can tell when you have a camera, but I loved to record them when they were just being themselves, not little actors.

Paulette said...

Yes, your post is beautiful. Your children are precious Angels indeed. I savored every moment with mine. They grow up in the twinkling of an eye for sure.
I miss those days for sure but that is why we have seasons of life and you will love each season as well.
Keep snapping those pictures... you will be glad you did.

Wendy said...

Great picture. I could relate to your post today. I keep a journal for each of my kids and it is amazing to me how many times I have had to go back to see who said what or did what.

Kate said...

i loved Perri's idea!
i can totally relate - all too often as a matter of fact. with my youngest one now 4, it's hard for me to fathom the thought of him being the age of my oldest (11.5). i get so sad all too often thinking of how they grow up just way to fast. be obsessive all you want with pictures, quotes of the day, phrases they say - it will be oh so worth it! (even write down their favorite and least favorite foods! we laugh at it now with my oldest as his tastes in foods have changed!). it's those little but oh so meaningful things... have a wonderful weekend!

keri said...

hey jen! i've loved catching up on all your posts....your sweet children are adorable. don't you just wish you could store away these snapshots in your mind and remember how their little voices sound? there are so many of those moments that i wish i could memorize so i will not forget what they were like when they are little! thankfully we have digital cameras...but its just not the same as the real thing!
hey, and thanks for checking out my new blog! :)

Darlene said...

That was so beautifully written. I have one little one left who is four, but soon to be five. I'm saying goodbye to the days of toddlers now, as he is heading off to school in the fall. It's hard to close any chapter on their lives even when we know that a new one is opening up.

I see the ring code now, so I'll add you to the blog ring and blogroll today.

Sarah's In the Midst of It said...

Jen, I'll email you in case you don't see this, but another Jen who has toddler triplets just commented on my site--her web address is amazingtrips.blogspot.com I don't know if you've found her or not, but her most recent post is SO funny--and probably something you can relate to! :)

Jen3 @ Amazing Trips said...

Hi Jen!

Your post rings so, so true for me, too. One thing that I've come to realize is that these days - the days are LONG, but the years are short. Each night, even though I'm positively exhausted putting three babies to bed ... I can't believe that another day has passed. And another. And another. This is an age where they are changing so much, their personalities are starting to bloom and they are absolutely wonderful little beings. Most of the time. I'm keeping our blog updated for the same reasons you mention. To capture these "memories" because I know that otherwise, they will be forgotten. I'll bookmark you and come back frequently to visit - so I have an idea of what's in store - around the bend! :)

CINDY said...

Your post puts a lump in my throat too.
Hole-juu is so sweet that I rarely correct my twin granddaughters to say Hole-meee. Have you tried playing Ring-around-rosy?, with multiples it's a blast.

Megan said...

I don't know you, but I am actually a visitor on Jen3's blog so I hope you don't mind me barging in, but I have to tell you how amazing it is to read about your experiences with 3. While I don't have 3 babies, I know how tiring just one is! And how important it is to be able to remember all the little things as they grow each and every day. You seem like an incredibly loving person and your family is just beautiful. Your children will be so thrilled in years to come to look back and read what you have written about them as will you. I will also be bookmarking you and checking in on your blog. I looked through and love all of the priceless pictures you have taken.

Thanks for reminding me of how special each and every day is and much there is to cherish about their mini or major milestones, or not-at-all milestones. Absolutely beautiful blog!

Patricia said...

just so beautiful, it hurts.

BooMama said...

Oh, that "HOLE JUUU" - just makes my heart melt reading it. I want to get all three of them in my lap and give them lots of sugar. :-) So sweet.

chickadee said...

they are just adorable. and i struggle with the same thing and do just like you: film, photograph, blog and journal. it's the only way i'll come close to remembering. right now i can't even call them by the right name! they minutes just pass so quickly.

Mommy Dearest said...

It is really hard watching them grow up. We have eight children, ranging from 20 years to 14 months old. The youngest is walking everywhere now, and I can't stand the thought of her not being a baby anymore. Be thankful for your camera and your blog to document all of those precious moments.

Becky said...

Linked over from BooMama's sight. I think about how quickly my lil' guys are growing up too.....TOO FAST!!!! Don't you just wish you could push the pause button on life once in awhile and soak it all in??

Tammy and Parker said...

What a beautiful post! Your are so wise to realize how fast these little ones grow up and how important it is to record the memories.......and make the memories with your little ones.

Veronica Mitchell said...

What a beautiful family you have. Of course you take lots of pictures.

Ashleigh said...

Precious post! I often feel the same thing when I hold, cuddle and love my five month old son. I know so very well the lump in the throat when thinking about him growing up. I wish so much I could just push a pause button and enjoy each moment to the absolute fullest. It's as if just as I notice something new he's doing, he changes yet again.

Lori said...

How beautiful they are!!! You are a lucky lady.

Thanks for sharing.

Big Mama said...

They are just darling and have that little twinkle in their eyes. I have a 3 year old and like you, wish some days away but hate to see her getting bigger. I don't want to miss a thing.