Thursday, July 19, 2012

Weary

Tonight after putting the children to bed my husband and I plopped down on the sofa. We didn't turn on our laptops or the television. Instead I laid my head on his chest and said, "I am weary."

Maybe it's the late Summer slump, but this week has kicked my tail. I have dealt with a sick child, a stolen credit card, frustrating customer service debacles, a to do list that is multiplying, children acting like, well, children, hormones, no 'me time.' Nothing Earth-shattering has happened--it's just the stinky stuff of life. Honestly, I haven't handled it well. I have cried. I have yelled. My attitude has been less than stellar and my love tank has been depleted to empty.

I am embarrassed to admit that I am weary. I don't work outside the home. I have had help with childcare. I have a loving family & friends. This is just the 'minor' stuff of life. My flesh taunts me: You should be able to handle this.

But I haven't been praying. I haven't been in small group fellowship since April. I haven't heard a sermon in two weeks. I haven't sang a praise song in days. I haven't opened my Bible in longer than I care to admit.

I am a branch in the Summer heat that is disconnected from my vine. I am starving for sustenance. As I crawled in bed tonight with the word 'weary' resonating in my heart, I was reminded of an old, familiar promise.

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest 
Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”  Matthew 11:28-30 NIV

It is a precious, timely invitation from my Father.


7 comments:

The Niemeyer Nest said...

That is my favorite Bible verse. Summer is hard because there is a huge expectation that everything has to be fun. Cut yourself some slack. It's okay to be weary. He will give you rest!

Lil Light O' Mine said...

Thanks for being so real. I relate to all of what you said. Been there often and I love that our God doesn't ever change. He's waiting for us. You are a great mom and kick those lies to the curb. An intentional mom of three like you should be dog tired. :)

Tara said...

When I was younger, we would sit at a red light and my mom would say, "Tell me when the light turns green" so she could close her eyes for a sec! haha There are 4 kids in my family, so I've seen my mom get weary too. Hang in there!

Cuz I'm the mama! said...

You spoke the exact words of my heart. So weary as I listen to my 2 year old scream and fight at 10:22 not wanting to go to bed. Weary. Tired. And I too have help with childcare, stay at home and should be able to handle this. But sometimes I can't. Like tonight. Bless your honest heart.

Laura said...

Oh I can do relate to this! Thank you for sharing.

Mickie McGee said...

Isn't it wonderful that He knows we are weary before we even do, and is just waiting for you to lie across His chest and rest on his beating heart...the heart that was broken for you..
Crying may last for the night...but joy comes in the morning!

Jillian, Inc said...

I can sooooooo relate! Hoping you get rest, some time with Him and a whole lotta love back in that tank!