Come Thy Fount

I keep learning a difficult lesson over and over again. Actually, I am apparently not learning it well because it keeps coming up. I continue to be tested. I have a thorn in my flesh reminding me, 'the good girl,' of how very yucky I can be inside. I need a Savior.

Tonight I am going over and over things in my head, searching for a lasting lesson--begging God to help me sidestep this snare the next time, to give me freedom from making the same mistakes--to "bind my wandering heart" to Him. As I was praying, I was led to go through these lyrics like a prayer. It was very cathartic.

Come, Thou Fount of every blessing,
Tune my heart to sing Thy grace;

Lord, I need You--the Author of all that is good and holy--to tune my heart to a place where it is even capable of singing of Your grace. The chasm between Your holy identity and mine is so great!

Streams of mercy, never ceasing,
Call for songs of loudest praise.
Teach me some melodious sonnet,
Sung by flaming tongues above.

Your mercy is unending, so difficult for me to comprehend, I know not how on Earth I can respond. The only thing I can imagine would be for You to create in me a new song. I cannot even imagine how the angels must sing for You in heaven!

Praise the mount! I’m fixed upon it,
Mount of Thy redeeming love.

Here I raise my Ebenezer;
Hither by Thy help I’ve come;

Samuel raised a rock to celebrate You, naming it Ebenezer which means "the Lord has been good to us thus far." Lord, you have been so very good to us. Not because we deserved it...but because you chose to be. May we not forget your goodness.

And I hope, by Thy good pleasure,
Safely to arrive at home.

Sometimes this world feels so very unsafe, fraught with snares and traps. Guard my heart for the journey, Lord.

Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it,
Prone to leave the God I love;

This is my favorite refrain from this old hymn, Lord...because it is far too often true in my life. Left unto my on devices I am like a simple minded sheep that will wander into dangerous territories.

Here's my heart, O take and seal it;
Seal it for Thy courts above.

I feel like I have to surrender for You to re-seal it over and over again. I know my status as a child of yours is secure. I know my citizenship in heaven is guaranteed. I just want my heart to cooperate as it goes through this journey, Lord.

Jesus sought me when a stranger,
Wandering from the fold of God;
He, to rescue me from danger,
Interposed His precious blood.

It has always been His idea...His work...both the making and the saving. And God put His Son on the line--and incomprehensible gesture--to show the seriousness of His pursuit. There was great price for the sin of this world...and it was paid.

Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it,
Prone to leave the God I love;
Here's my heart, O take and seal it;
Seal it for Thy courts above.

I know this is a non-traditional post...and the second one today...but I just needed this tonight.