My children are starting Kindergarten in 12 days.
I thought I was going to get to blow through this milestone without much emotion. After all, they have been attending and thriving in a 5 day a week preschool program for 2 years.
We are changing schools, but their hours will be similar. The children are thrilled. They already know many of their classmates. They are familiar with their classrooms as a result of attending a couple of weeks of Summer day camp there for the last 3 years. Why would this be emotional?
I don't know why. I just know that it is.
This morning, I attended new parent orientation. As I learned 90 minutes worth of new school rules and routines I found myself feeling overwhelmed emotionally. I couldn't put my finger on it until the drive home.
Here's the thing: Although I have three children, in many ways it feels like three only children. Because K, P &R are the same age, most milestones are simultaneously a first and a last. I have three different people, with three distinct personalities, quirks, strengths and weaknesses all going through major life milestones at the same time. It feels like I am 'drinking from a fire hose' much of the time. Then, just when I get the hang of whatever season we are in, it is over--never to be experienced again with children. Then, before I have much of a chance to catch my breath, we are on to the next thing.
I have thirteen more years (God willing) before these birdies leave the nest. Certain milestones just remind me that it is a process not a one time thing. Instead of ripping off the bandaid, there are almost 2 decades of slow tugs that pull and sting this mother's heart.
I know this is part of being a Mama. My heart just feels tender.
We have had a terrific Summer. This age is simply incredible. I am looking forward to the structure Fall schedules bring, but I am going to really miss time with my people.
I know countless women before me and behind me have walked this road. It will be a growing experience for all of us. I just cannot believe we are already at this place. No more babyhood. No more toddlerhood. No more preschoolers. Bring on elementary school!