So, for the second year in a row I have spent Independence Day on my sofa while febrile children sleep upstairs and fireworks erupt overhead. Sadly, I can hear them but not see them.
Our cable is out (another casualty of the backyard digging) so I am in a quiet house reflecting on independence. I have started to write patriotic things, but cannot quite find the words to capture my feelings on God and country.
I love living in the United States and the rights and freedoms associated with such. I am exceedingly grateful this is the time and place in history God chose to write my story. I am keenly aware that the life I live in this place has been fought for and defended by the great sacrifice and blood of brave men and women.
But, frankly, I am afraid I have become a stereotypically disconnected, lazy American. Before children I listened to talk radio, read political commentary and watched the talking heads try to sort out the issues on television. Somewhere along the way, amidst sleeplessness and diaper changes, I checked out. It started to all feel too stressful to fret over national issues I could do little to influence when I had my hands full in my daily life.
I lost faith that there were really voices trying to inform the public. Instead, they all seemed to have an ideological or financial agenda. Frustrated by the lack of time to sort through it all I just gave up. What difference is this little housewife in Georgia going to make anyway?
I am not encouraging this way of thinking, just putting it out there. I really don't want to be a part of the uninformed masses, blindly and complacently muddling through...but, truly, when there are children to raise, husbands to love and countless needy people/ministries within your local community how do you keep up with things at a national level?
With only 24 hours in a day, how do you decide when/how to make room for political in light of all the eternal/spiritual opportunities to invest your time--and a family that needs you irrespective of taxes, elections and border control?
I pray for our country and I vote--but, otherwise, I feel disconnected. God wired me to be a passionate crusader, but there seem to be plenty of battles to fight on the home front and at a local level to even begin to think more broadly. Is it enough to trust that our Sovereign God has it under control and He'll call on me and impress it upon me to act if I am needed?
Would love to hear your thoughts.