Monday, May 03, 2010

How Did I Get Here?

After I took the children to school this morning I went to work out and to Kroger before returning home. I was enjoying Spring weather in shorts, a t-shirt, ponytail and tennis shoes. As I bee-bopped in my backdoor I was feeling especially lighthearted and youthful. (Which is ironic because I had spent my morning on the phone with a painter, a roofer, a car repair place and an HVAC repairman...not exactly the stuff 19 year old Spring mornings are made of.)

Anyway, as I put the groceries away and glanced over at breakfast dishes in the sink, it hit me in a strange way: You are 35, married, with three children. The very next thing that went through my crazy head was the lyrics to Talking Heads Once in a Lifetime

"You may find yourself behind the wheel of a large automobile
You may find yourself in a beautiful house, with a beautiful wife
You may ask yourself: well... how did I get here?"

Please tell me I am not the only one who has these moments. It was over almost as soon as it began. I got back to washing dishes, paying bills and managing my home.

Later in the day I got a call from a friend that works at our church. A litter of kittens had been found and they were on their way to the pound if no one adopted them. Would I take a trio for my trio? Of course not! Did she think I was a lunatic? Instead I wound up with twins.

Meet Cotton and Boo...They are tiny and precious and once they outgrow the rodents in my outdoor closet I hope they might be able to patrol our home's perimeter and keep them at bay. :-)
My children are beside themselves with excitement. We have really missed having a kitty--and these babies are adorable!

And tonight I cannot help but shake my head at myself. When did this driven, career-pursuing woman become a homemaker in a ponytail driving a Suburban with three kids and four pets? As my husband reminded me tonight, I was NOT a pet person when we married. I am an order and neatness freak when it comes to my home. Am I now 
pursuing chaos?

I know the answer is "No." I am a blessed, content woman who has gotten in touch with her nurturing side. I am thoroughly enjoying the snuggles and laughter that ALL of these canine, feline and human lives bring. And now, everyone has a buddy and we can hang our "No Vacancy" sign


Pam said...

jMom, I am so with you on those fleeting moments of "how did I get here?"
We sound similar in so many ways. I never imagined myself behind the wheel of a mini-van that I still try to drive like a sports car when I'm by myself. I was avowed one cat woman when I married and had to give up said cat for my beloved man.

We now have two inside dogs, and one is not potty trained yet!

We are similar, too, in that we are blessed, content, and loved. No more babies here, but snuggle time each night with a puppy is a great substitute for this mama who probably won't house a newborn again.

As always, thanks for sharing your heart and reminding me a kindred spirit is merely a short drive away. : )

k and c's mom said...

I am at a period in life where all of my friends and I are "empty nesters" (except, believe me, it is really a revolving door!). We often say to each other, "Aren't we still 18 and WHERE did these kids come from?" I've heard it said that we are always the same age inside. I love being surprised by life.

Arlene Grimm said...

I totally identify with you Jmom and kandc's mom!! I am a mother and grandmother and I still feel like I am 18 on the inside!:) I think everyone has those moments of how did I get here? It encourages me to redeem the time...making the most of each day that God gives me.

Lori said...

"Am I now pursing chaos?" I find myself asking the very same thing on most days! I like to think of it as simply letting go of my need to have a perfectly vacuumed house at all times & enjoying the "more abundant" life God has given me!

storey said...

this is hilarious...knowing you! ha! glad all are happy and getting snuggles :) love you guys!