Last month I wore a cardiac event monitor under my clothing for 4 weeks as I fasted from caffeine. The purpose was to see how things were going with my heart. The monitor recorded a handful of premature ventricular and atrial contractions (AKA heart skipping beats) each day but those are not really harmful, fairly common and not something you necessarily treat.
The good news is that my cardiologist said I can have caffeine again...the bad news is that meant my thoughts of staying off for good went flying out the window as I left his office obsessed with the thought of a Splenda-sweetened tea over crushed ice from Chic-Fil-A (followed later that afternoon by an ice cold Diet Coke in a glass bottle...YUM!). I am committed to moderation with caffeine and eventually giving it up, but frankly, I am tired and just not willing to do the work necessary to stay off it completely right now.
The really good news is that I also had my annual echocardiogram last week and today received the best report on my heart in three years. My ejection fraction, which was at fatal levels (10-15%) in May of 2004 is completely back to normal. There is no scientific explanation why, but women with cardiomyopathies like mine either die from it (30%), live but never fully regain their heart function (30%) or recover fully (30%). It seems I am in the "fully recovered" category now. Praise God!
The really, really good news is the thing my hubby and my cardiologist were most concerned with lately, my mitral valve prolapse with moderate regurge, looks a lot better as well. This means any talk of maybe having a valve replaced one day is over for now.
I am still on two cardiac medications that I will take for the rest of my life...but compared to all the other possible outcomes, those 3 pills a day are an afterthought.
I have no idea why God chose to not only spare me, but heal me completely while others far "better" than me have different outcomes. I decided a couple of years ago to stop obsessing over that question. It is a moot point. I won't know the answer on this side of heaven. I must simply strive to do what we are ALL called to do (near death experiences or not), which is live a life that glorifies our creator. So today, I will simply praise the one who saved my soul and spared my life on this Earth for now. To God be all the glory and the honor and the praise!