I have been thinking about why I haven't posted anything deep and meaningful in several days. I realized it is because I am not in the Word. Because the children wake up earlier and earlier every day, a morning quiet time routine has been difficult to establish. During naptime, I have been napping a bit myself. In between it is a mad rush of living in the moment and doing things that demand my attention. The tyranny of the urgent many call it.
Instead of a steady diet of God's Word, I feel like I am taking it in on the go. A nibble here. A bite there. If there were a drive-thru restaurant for Scripture, I am afraid I would be a frequent customer lately. Yet, this is not truly satisfying. It is sustaining, but only in a basic needs, avoiding starvation kind of way.
This is not what I desire. I have great intentions. Yet, if you look at how I spend my time, I am a hypocrite. How can I say I live for, follow and serve someone but not spend any time listening to His instructions and encouragement? I am too often serving a false god: the god of my personal comfort and an organized "Real Simple magazine" life.
If I compare myself to other people, I can provide a whole scorecard of all the things I am doing...yet inside my heart, when compared to my Father, there is much work to be done. Lord, I confess it and I repent.
Test yourselves to make sure you are solid in the faith. Don't drift along taking everything for granted. Give yourselves regular checkups. You need firsthand evidence, not mere hearsay, that Jesus Christ is in you. Test it out. If you fail the test, do something about it. I hope the test won't show that we have failed. But if it comes to that, we'd rather the test showed our failure than yours. We're rooting for the truth to win out in you. We couldn't possibly do otherwise.
We don't just put up with our limitations; we celebrate them, and then go on to celebrate every strength, every triumph of the truth in you. We pray hard that it will all come together in your lives.
2 Corinthians 13:5-9 (The Message)