Where I Am

Real life. That's where I am right now.
Precious husband.
Crazy schedule.
Giggling children.
Hurting friends.
Incredible people in my life.
Unexpected twists and turns.
Side splitting, soul replenishing laughter on the porch over coffee with women I love.
Tears over the phone with fearful worried hearts hours later.

And honestly, I have a little whiplash.

I want to savor the moments, but I am drinking from a firehose. This has nothing to do with overcommitment (for once in a LONG time) and far more to do with this broken world and the junk that comes with it.

And this is where the rubber meets the road. Will I be a circumstance girl or will I live what I profess to believe? Will I be ruled by my fears and feelings or my faith?

I want to be found faithful.
I must set my mind on things above not on earthly things.
I need to be reminded of WHO He is so that everything else will be put in it's proper place.
God's love is not dependent on any of these things, of course...but some days it feels like my emotional health and well-being may be :-)

I will lay head on my pillow tonight in trust.
He is who He says He is.
He cares about His people.
God is in control
We can all rest in that.