Saturday, February 28, 2009

Heart Walk 2009: Before

As I type this it is pouring rain with more intense thunderstorms on their way. Our area is under a flood watch. It is the type of Saturday morning where a warm cup of coffee and lounging clothes are in order.

Yet, in an hour I will be surrounded by family and friends celebrating the miracle God did in our lives by healing my very sick heart in May 2004.

I have been wrestling with what to say from the podium. How do I capture all that my now healthy heart has pondered regarding my humility, awe and gratitude at being spared? With an hour to go, I am still not sure. Frankly, I think it is impossible. I am trying to just be prayerful and submit my mouth to God.

As I listen to my children's excited chatter--(and R asking if they can wear their bicycle helmets today if it hails) I think: What if I had missed this?

As I think about my Monday night girls and my friends who have pledged to walk, I find it hard to comprehend that had I not been spared I would have never known them. These people who love my family enough to show up in the most dismal weather of the year...who prayed, who brought us meals for months, who have walked beside us faithfully since. How can I express the gratitude my heart feels?

As I think about standing next to my husband....my precious, faithful husband, (I had to stop here for a minute) I cannot help but think about what his life would have been like as a widower with three small children.

I remember my family and closest friends at my bedside in the darkest hours of the ICU and I am overcome with joy and thankfulness at the great faithfulness God has displayed in my life. He is good. He is the divine Healer. He is faithful.

If you happen to read this before 9:40 EST will you pray for my words today?

12 comments:

Bailey's Leaf said...

Certainly we will pray! Have a great, hail-free day!

new mom in law said...

It is 8:40 and I will commit to pray this last hour as I ride from PA to NC. Let us know how God blesses....because I KNOW He will!

Christi said...

Prayed (and still praying) for you this morning.

Colored With Memories said...

honored to be praying for you!

dee said...

Praying for you. What you wrote conveys it perfectly-I know the words He supplies you with will be just as beautiful!

Phillips Phamily Mama said...

Here in the rain, too. Praying for you!

Tonya said...

And I'm praying in the snow... I look forward to reading about it later!

HW said...

Yes. Yes, I will pray for you. What a beautiful post as you have given HIM the glory. As for what to say? Why not what you have typed this morning? It's perfect. HE will speak to your heart and through your heart...because of your heart.

boomama said...

Praying for you!

Carol said...

I, too, am praying that the Lord will fill your mouth with the words He wants you to share. Blessings on you!

carol @ i throw like a girl

Marva said...

Praying........

Sitesx6 said...

Hi-
I've been reading your blog for two years. I just want to say, I often think of how God is so good to have spared your life so you could be with your family and watch your children grow up. Your story is really amazing. God's mercy is so clear in your story. I'm glad you are sharing it with others.
Hugs!
Kelly