Friday morning as I was preparing to leave for Deeper Still I read this post by Jon at SCL. I was so challenged by his post and discussed it with my accountability partner, Beth, on the way to the conference.
Reading the Bible consistently has been a struggle of mine for most of my adult life. I won't get into listing my excuses or explanations. The bottom line is that I have not been passionate about the pure, unadulterated Word of God. I really do want to know about God...but if I am honest, I want someone else to do the research, pick out the important stuff and spoonfeed it to me in a way that is entertaining, encouraging and challenging.
I left this weekend convicted about the fact that I make time to read all kinds of things everyday, but the Bible itself is not an everyday, absolute priority. I loved how Beth Moore described her need to read the Word first thing in the morning in order to "settle the matter of Authority in her life." Kay Arthur challenged me further when she said that if we have time to read novels or Christian books but are not in the Word daily, we have things mixed up.
Friends, I confess, I have things mixed up.
Seeing Beth, Kay & Priscilla's love of Truth and knowledge of the Lord was a real encouragement to me. I need Him. My children need to see me reading the Bible, not just books or blogs. As I spent the last 24 hours in the Word I felt a change in my Spirit. I want more of that.
Priscilla Shirer spoke of the development of true spiritual discernment and the fact that it comes from KNOWING God. The way to know Him is to immerse ourselves in His Word. It is there for the taking. Yet, I, like the Israelites, want to send Moses up the mountain to bring it back for me when I have the access to God myself.
I prayed this weekend that God would make me like Moses. As I sat in that arena with 19,000 other women, praising God with all of my soul, I was able to hear God beckoning me to draw closer to Him. I want that.
"Man does not live on bread alone but on every word that comes from the mouth of the LORD." Deuteronomy 8:3b (NIV)
So, I committed today to not read another book until I have spent at least one month consistently in the Bible--just me & the Word of my Lord. My accountability partner and I are also going to start reading through the Bible, in hopes of finishing in one year.
The best part is that I do not feel 'guilted' into this. I am excited. I cannot wait to see what God does as His Spirit falls afresh on my heart through the exploration of His Word. As Priscilla said, "We turn to the Scripture to find out who He is and, ultimately, who we are."
I am fired up and looking forward to it!