This weekend through a whole silly set of circumstances that don't require rehashing, I was reminded again that there are still some places in my heart where a gap exists--between who I wish I were and who I really am.
I am so thankful that I have a faith at work in my life that acknowledges my sin, my struggles, my insecurities, my pride, my greed and the rest of my junk. It is not who I want to be--I am striving for less junk and more fruit. But, I am human--and I like to live life honestly. The trouble in being authentic in my relationships happens when that gap becomes exposed.
I am embarrassed about the less than flattering truths about who I am sometimes.
This week I have been reminded that true friendship, true love is feeling safe enough to admit it--not justifying it or asking for validation that those less than holy places are "just fine"--but being in relationship with folks who love me in process.
Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Philippians 3:12 NIV
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